i hate today

thinking of this verse on too many days now! But today was exceptionally bad. firstly woke up at 6+ for 8am tute. T___T! hate mornings to begin with! and woke up to 15 degrees! like hellooo summer?!?! and heavy freaking rain and semi flooding on the streets. was so tempted to go back to sleep but it was damn important tute. grrrrrr. so armed up and trudged thru the water and the cold to the station! was half wet when i reached class. grrr bad start to the day already!

after reaching home, had to go out again to get my police check done (delayed it for too long already!) and i walked out again in the rain n cold n when i reached, they told me that they changed the method and asked me to fill out the form online and come back with cash! wadafakkkkkk wats the difference with writing it out in the station. t(-.-t)

and on the way the wind was blowing so strongly! n having a weak left wrist from an incident before that has finally stopped hurting for some time now! BUT NOO the wind blew the umbrella making me bend my wrist wtfffff damn pain now mcb!

PISSED OFF and damn hungry. wanted to buy chicken (massive chicken craving!) so i went to hungry jack's and ordered 'classic grilled chicken' chicken no? NO its a freaking burger ! fuuuuuu

nvm too hungry to bother already. went back home and decided to do laundry. too lazy already so just threw everything in the machine. and fuuuuu my towel red fur ended up on most of my clothes. wtfff piss ttm. and decided to just go to bed before anything else happens. grr

classic bad day! and whoever said that year 2 no stress? LIES! thinking of tutes also T_____T already!

but anyway yayyyyyy taylor swift on saturday! like finallyyyy! and weather forecast sunny the next whole week! thank gooooood. shall BLAST t swift till saturday! yayyyy :D

because i feel it too.

Florence and the machine - shake it off

Regrets collect like old friends

Here to relive your darkest moments

I can see no way, I can see no way

And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh

But I like to keep some things to myself

I like to keep my issues drawn

It's always darkest before the dawn

And I've been a fool and I've been blind

I can never leave the past behind

I can see no way, I can see no way

I'm always dragging that horse around

All of his questions, such a mournful sound

Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground

So I like to keep my issues drawn

But it's always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back

So shake him off, oh woah

I am done with my graceless heart

So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart

Cause I like to keep my issues drawn

It's always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back

So shake him off, oh woah

And given half the chance would I take any of it back

It's a final mess but it's left me so undone

It's always darkest before the dawn

Oh woah, oh woah...

And I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't

So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my rope

And I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope

It's a shot in the dark and right at my throat

Cause looking for heaven, for the devil in me

Looking for heaven, for the devil in me

Well what the hell I'm gonna let it happen to me

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back

So shake him off, oh woah

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back

So shake him off, oh woah

Healing.

For others the healing happens gradually and it's not until months or even years later that you realize you don't hurt anymore.

But if you can make it through the first weeks and months.
If you believe that healing is possible
Then you can get your life back.
But that's a big if.

Thank you grey's anatomy (:

Ass pain

Spending valentine's this year in a hospital. Still a better valentine's than other years cos for once there was no boy crap. Cause when you spent the best valentine's 5 years ago, nothing will be the same again. Of cos better than those self pity foreveralone people who are self absorbed over themselves. No wonder you are foreveralone. Self centered piece of shits!

Anyway leaving on Friday. So not looking forward to it cause irritable bowel syndrome is a pain in the ass, literally. Hahaha. But gonna be finding an apartment, furniture shopping etc. will be exciting! Haha. Let's hope it all goes well! *fingerscrossed!

little things

1. doc : you lost 1.5kg in a month. have u been dieting? me : NO i've been jogging in the evening. doc : u jogging to lose weight or to keep fit? me : err lose a little? o.O doc : you are far from being overweight, please don't be obsessive and eat. (WAHAHAHA not aneroxic, no worries! and dieting is the fool's way, pls!)

2. mum : she sleeps at 3am and wakes up at 12pm and skips breakfast. doc : ohh that's holiday syndrome. (WINNNNN)

3. you still look good. (HAHAHAHHAHA OHH THANK U! :D)

4. BFFs don't judge, BFFs share. :')

5. mum : i love nuts. dad : why u call me nut?? (*FACEPALMS)

6. you don't look 20 at all. (WHY THANK YOUU)

7. we are all friends because we are all mean. (Y)!!

8. obliviously bitching bout the government with abdullah badawi sitting at the next table without us realizing. out of nowhere, jac : oiahrogfharougboufbvoushoahqoyebofbosfybgsob me&pin&heidi : wtf she saying? jac : types out - abdullah badawi!! me&pin&heidi : AHAHAHAHAHHAAH (WINNNN)

9. you look skinny today (Y)!

10. me : TIME TO PLAY ASSHOLES! jy : if i printscreen that comment out of context, it's gonna look so wrong. (OOOOOOPS)

11. I am foreveralone wat!! You are foreveralone cos you choose to be alone. (honestly... Super nice & comforting thing to be told! Independence bitches! t(-.-t) Hahaha)

12. "some people just take longer to let go, that's all" (the sweetest thing someone ever said about my situation ever :'))

that makes your day. (:

(:

This post requires no words to express how contented I am in this moment.(:

Independence yooo

Sooo if I start working next year n manage to save 10 bucks each time. After 3 years, I'll have the money to come home n buy my own car!! Like my freaking own car beeeeches! Not like some losers that use their parents car n think it's theirs, cause it's not!


My future baby!:D